I just want all of you to know that Wednesday morning this household woke up in a way that most mornings do not start. Claire started screaming (I know, shocker) for her Grandma and crying for over an hour. I am talking pounding her feet, throwing herself all over the floor because she was upset that her Grandma (and Grandpa, Tanis and CO.) weren't there. Porter sat sulking in the corner and I was bawling my eyes out.
Why? Well, here are your choices:
a) because I now had to stand up and get my kids breakfast on my own after a wonderful week of soreness, stitches and pampering,
b) because I missed Mom, Dad, Tanis, Hudson and cute baby Tate,
c) because I wished they could stay forever...seriously,
d) because I was still emotional from being pregnant, or
e) because I am always, pregnant or not, an emotional basket case.
The answer would have to be....ALL OF THE ABOVE. I called Tyler at work crying. (This he has been used to for the past 3 weeks, let's be honest, the past 6 years of our marriage), and when he asked why I just said, "I miss your family". He started almost laughing but his reply was, "I'm glad you love them so much." And, yes, I do love them so much.
Okay, here come the tears again...ahhhh! I just wanted to say Thank You a Million Million times for everything. Heavenly Father has given me so much insight and so many tender mercies throughout this whole experience, and one of those was MY family-you guys. I am so grateful for such a WONDERFUL mother-in-law...first off that she was in tune enough to feel the prompting to come with me to my doctor's appt 30 minutes after she walked through the door. Without her, I really don't know if I would have made it. I was a mess. I was a mess. I don't know another mother-in-law that would a)eat McDonald's for all meals in one day and pace the floor while I was in surgery. I don't know a mother-in-law that would sit there with you and counsel you with so much love and be the first one in the recovery room after surgery. She dressed me, helped me up, held my hand, talked for me when I couldn't, questioned the doctor when I was in shock and couldn't think for myself. I love you Mom. You were and are such a blessing. Thank you for the chicken noodle soup, for doing my laundry and dishes and for everything in between. I love you. I am seriously bawling so hard right now .
And Dad-thank you for the support and love and for the blessing that calmed me before surgery. Thank you for being such a wonderful grandpa to my kids. They love you and miss you so much. Tanis, holy cow-seriously, thank you for helping with the kids, cleaning, meals and being there to talk to. I miss you so much. It felt so wonderful to sit and have friends to talk to. I am bawling even harder. And Tim of course for being so flexible. I feel so awful that I feel like I ruined your short trip but I am so glad that you and Tanis got to go into the city before you left! Thanks for hanging out and being here.
Every morning since you left feels like Wednesday morning. I feel like crying. I miss you all and wish the rest of you could be here too. Thank you for all of your prayers and phone calls and concern. I have the best families in the world. I needed the support and you were here. I just owe you all a really big....something...i'm not sure but it would have to be big. Thank you. I miss you and hope that you come back (this time hopefully on better circumstances! )
Okay, I am bawling and can't see the keys to type anymore. Gosh, this feels like our Christmas Eve circle time bawling fest! Can't wait for that one! I wanted to leave a comment on Mom's blog but didn't know if you read the comments and I really needed to say thank you to everyone! I love you all.
Love,
Erica
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